Over the past few weeks, I’ve realized that it is okay to ask for help, but that I also have to be willing to help myself!
Despite the realizations that I have about my weight and the fact that I think it is making me feeling unwell as well as depressed (I’m being honest here – I hate admitting that my weight is causing me to feel this way!), I need to take drastic measures. It is one thing to talk about what I’m going to do to make myself a healthier, and happier, person and another thing to actually do something about it!
So I’ve got a plan. This plan is different, however, in that I have to make myself accountable and stop blaming other people for leading me astray. I am the captain of my own ship (geez…I can coin a phrase as well as Charlie Sheen…okay that was a bad joke!) – I control my own destiny when it comes to taking care of myself.
The key, for me, to being successful is structure. I know that – now it is just making it work!
At work, I need to take my big water bottle and, every time I want to snack because I’m bored, take a big swig of my water. It is a 1.89 L bottle and I think that if I fill it twice a day it can be really beneficial – it gives me something to do and keeps me from thinking “I need to have a snack”. The other key at work is to walk around my workplace – when I have a break and I can go and snack, taking a walk is a much better option because it allows me to burn calories while keeping me from eating!
At home, I also need to moderate my eating. My husband is the type of guy who can eat…and eat…and eat and never gain weight. I’ve already moved all of his snacks to the high cupboards (I can’t reach up there without a chair so it is a bit of the old “out of sight, out of mind” philosophy). I need to remind him that he CAN snack without offering his snacks to me. I think he feels guilty so he always asks if I want anything…and even if I say no he will ask multiple times until I say yes. In the end, that is my problem because I need to stick to my guns – life is full of temptation and I just need to avoid it! (He, by the way, is thrilled about the prospect of being a consumer and reviewer via me of any tasty treats that come to review – he says he willing to “take one for the team”!).
Lastly, working out has been something I have managed to make excuses to avoid continously. I am really lucky that one of my best friends suggested we start working out together. Like me, she finds it hard to motivate herself to get to the gym so we are taking this on together when we can! We are devoting 4 days a week to working out together, which leaves me with only 2 days when I will have to motivate myself. And today, though she couldn’t come with me because she was sick, I actually made it on my own! It is a small victory but one that I’m going to relish.
So I’m starting over and my weight will reflect that. This is Week 1 again and I will check in at least once a week (though you may find I’m doing it more often as a means of motivating myself!).
GOAL WEIGHT – by June 30th – 145 pounds
Starting Weight (March 6th) – 184 pounds
I’m looking forward to sharing my success with you! If there are any companies out there that would like to help me achieve this goal, please let me know!