I ran across a file on my computer last night where I outlined my Plans for 2012. It is funny because I don’t remember writing the post (that’s what age will do to you!) but I do remember how I was feeling last year at this time.
I was frustrated with myself.
I felt like I had goals I wanted to achieve but they were impossible.
I knew I was my own worst enemy.
Now I’m interested to see how I have done and look at where I want to go in 2013.
Today I’m going to focus on looking back.
My goals in 2012 were to:
1. Stop being my own worst enemy.
I’ve realized that I can still be my own worst enemy but I’ve taken many steps to curb my negative behaviours and ways of dealing with issues. I’ve spent some time talking to my doctor (who is a great guy now that I’ve actually gotten to know him!) and we’ve worked together to plan some strategies to help me in this area. Though I’m far from perfect and still have work to do (like how my fears/stress/worries follow a specific yearly cycle – how weird is that?) I have taken a number of positive steps.
2. Become healthier by exercising more and losing a substantial amount of weight.
A year ago I felt like I had an impossible mountain to climb. One year later, I am almost 50 pounds lighter and well in step to achieving my goal (which I’ve slated for the end of June).
I’ve also learned that life involves balance. While I’m not hitting any Biggest Loser-type targets each week, I’m actually developing a healthier lifestyle as a whole. I still have weeks where I slide back into my old way of doing things (Christmas holidays have been one big example!), but I’ve also realized that there is a time and place to enjoy without going into crazy overkill mode!
3. Developing and cooking healthy recipes and no more fast food!
I’ve cut down on my takeout meals drastically to the point that I can’t even remember the last time I ate fast food!
I’m still working on developing my cooking skills and I have a new goal for 2013 (which I’ll tell you about tomorrow!).
4.Keep finances organized.
I’ve done incredibly well on this front. With the help of Microsoft Excel, I keep my finances on a spreadsheet and I do projections that help me see how and when I will hit certain targets.
5. Sharing my love with the people who are important to me.
I hope that I am doing this as I am trying really hard to do so. Short of asking my friends and family to fill out a questionnaire (and, if you knew me, you could see me actually doing that!) it is difficult to gauge. I know my relationships have improved with many of my friends because I’ve made more time for them (and a little time can mean a lot). My relationship with my siblings has also improved as I try to be less judgmental of them and just accept them for who they are. With my immediate family I try to make this a daily event and I know I’m more successful on some days than others, but I do keep working on it!
So what do I hope to achieve in 2013? Tomorrow I’ll share my plans for looking foward this coming year!